A letter to God

Thank you God for reminding me what I forgot all these years that you and only you would understand me in the truest sense what ever is being told. You are the only one who would never forget me or get bored with my expressions. You are the only one who would be walking with me holding my hands when everyone walks out. You are the only one who would not judge me with what I have. You won’t treat me differently based on what qualification I possess or based on how I look. You are not going to differentiate me from the other wonderful creations of yours. For you everything is equal because everything is you. You would decide my life based on my actions and bear all the criticisms I make about you in my frustration. For you the only things that matter are the depth of emotion, sincere trust and unshakable affection.

You are the one who had always been there when ever I want to talk. You are the only one who is the busiest and yet never tell the people who want to talk to you that you are busy. You never reduce your blessing even when we drift apart running after the worldly things. We meet random people. They walk in get our trust. We confide our troubles and would be willing to do so much to them and be close. Give your honest views when they do something not nice or when they disappoint you, they would get bored with you and then finally they drift apart. Sometime you relate to people who don’t relate to you and realizing it so late would itself cause much discomfort. And we keep running behind the ones who drifted to revive the good old days without realizing that it was a thing of past. Close friends becomes strangers. Strangers become good friends. This cycle repeats and confuses us. But one thing is sure trying to be close to people who are not close in return is like holding a block of cold ice under the hot sun and believing it would be there in your hands always.

Oh the almighty please forgive me to have drifted apart from you all these years and I was searching for unconditional affection out there at this world you created not understanding that you have gifted me that in abundance. And I was searching happiness of being cherished by people who meant a lot to me in this world. Then I realized your voice which is just inside me. In the heart is where you reside. I close my ears away from the noise of the world to realize your peaceful presence. It says am here just with you why you are worried.

Why do you search for what you want outside when am just inside you and when am everything. When I am there to listen why do you search for ears which would hear you? Even if some one hears there is no guarantee they would understand or give you undivided attention for few minutes. There is no guarantee they would trust you or confide in you in return and you would finally understand the emptiness when they drift apart and realize they were never listening when they heard. For when you base your trust and affection on mortals who would change often only emptiness would remain.

Give your affection unconditionally and be for those who need you. And don't go after the ones who are drifting away beyond a point of time. With this true realization I closed my eyes and drifted to deep meditation. And the peaceful vibration of - - "OM"- - pounded on my ears filling me with eternal joy. Show your true emotions only to God for he would never ignore them.