Thank you God for reminding me what I forgot all these years
that you and only you would understand me in the truest sense what ever is
being told. You are the only one who would never forget me or get bored with my
expressions. You are the only one who would be walking with me holding my hands
when everyone walks out. You are the only one who would not judge me with what
I have. You won’t treat me differently based on what qualification I possess or
based on how I look. You are not going to differentiate me from the
other wonderful creations of yours. For you everything is equal because
everything is you. You would decide my life based on my actions and bear all
the criticisms I make about you in my frustration. For you the only things that
matter are the depth of emotion, sincere trust and unshakable affection.
You are the one who had always been there when ever I want to
talk. You are the only one who is the busiest and yet never tell the people who
want to talk to you that you are busy. You never reduce your blessing even when
we drift apart running after the worldly things. We meet random people. They
walk in get our trust. We confide our troubles and would be willing to do so
much to them and be close. Give your honest views when they do something not
nice or when they disappoint you, they would get bored with you and then
finally they drift apart. Sometime you relate to people who don’t relate to you
and realizing it so late would itself cause much discomfort. And we keep
running behind the ones who drifted to revive the good old days without
realizing that it was a thing of past. Close friends becomes strangers. Strangers
become good friends. This cycle repeats and confuses us. But one thing is sure
trying to be close to people who are not close in return is like holding a block
of cold ice under the hot sun and believing it would be there in your hands
always.
Oh the almighty please forgive me to have drifted apart from you
all these years and I was searching for unconditional affection out there at
this world you created not understanding that you have gifted me that in
abundance. And I was searching happiness of being cherished by people who meant
a lot to me in this world. Then I realized your voice which is just inside me.
In the heart is where you reside. I close my ears away from the noise of the
world to realize your peaceful presence. It says am here just with you why you
are worried.
Why do you search for what you want outside when am just
inside you and when am everything. When I am there to listen why do you search for ears which would
hear you? Even if some one hears there is no guarantee they would understand or
give you undivided attention for few minutes. There is no guarantee they would
trust you or confide in you in return and you would finally understand the emptiness
when they drift apart and realize they were never listening when they heard.
For when you base your trust and affection on mortals who would change often
only emptiness would remain.
Give your affection unconditionally and be for those who need
you. And don't go after the ones who are drifting away beyond a point of time. With this true realization I closed my eyes and drifted to deep
meditation. And the peaceful vibration of - - "OM"-
- pounded on my ears filling me with eternal joy. Show your true
emotions only to God for he would never ignore them.